(Late post!)I'm hiding myself between racks while typing this to keep myself away from my colleagues and supervisor's sight. Hahah yes I'm at work now and since there is barely anyone around, I thought I should use this time to write here.
Anyway school has been pretty alright. Projects are all starting again but so far, my group mates and I seems to be getting quite well and so is our progress. Lesson are bearable now because I'm slowly getting along with my classmates. Plus my poly clique are really great to be with.
Last weekend Jinhao and I went to Wangz hotel for a weekend relaxation and it was also meant for his belated celebration. Hahah the stay was lovely! The service were great, the bed was so incredibly soft and comfy I thought I was gonna drown in it! I'll talk about it again next time with lots of picture too!
Anyway Jinhao and I tried this sand coloring together sometime ago. Hahaha I've always wanted to do something like this but with the liquid/gel form but this was still good. He picked the one with a girl in it and I got the bunny one. It brings back childhood memories and i felt like a kid all over again actually! Doesn't all the lil' girl's past time used to be coloring?
We just sat down and did it for an hr (almost) without talking much. Talk about being engrossed! Hahaha we didn't have enough sand for both pictures so we shared etc.. And you can see some part that still has the yellow paper on it because we didnt pour any sand to it. At least it was fun.. for me!
I'm trying hard to update my blog asap at the same time, but it's just really hard with all the workload from school and my job. Anyway, last week, i went for the interview with the University of Riverside California and Walt disney representative. It went really well and i got accepted! I'm sooooo thrilled! Though i know that these 4 mths left in school will pass real quick and i will be in California in no time.. I still can't wait for it! It is a lot, a lot of money to go for this trip and i hope that i will be able learn tons of stuffs, gain experience and exposure and embrace the culture over there! Wheeeee~
Anyway, i'm way more active on Twitter. So follow me there, lovelies! I linked it here already, just click on the link!
Before Jinhao flew off to China for his internship which happened to fall on my birthday, he came over to my place to have an advanced celebration for me. I actually mentioned before that, that he promised to bring me for a picnic before he went away a couple of days before that. Haha so he went to do groceries shopping nearby that morning and told me we will be having picnic.. I was surprised of course! Hahaha plus i always love making sandwiches. It's so much fun!
Anyway as he was slicing the sausage etc.. i was talking about the things we had to bring like mat etc. And thats when he said smth that caught me off guard..
Him: "Oh. But we're having picnic at home."
Me:
Hahaha yeah that was what he planned.. Because he knew we dont have the luxury of time to do all the travelling and had a outdoor picnic and he knew i really wish to do a picnic so he thought of a indoor picnic. Hahah we dont even have to step foot outside. Anyway after the sandwich making, we grabbed a couple of seat and brought the sandwiches & drinks into my room.. I played some music and we just watched the clear skies passed (since i lived at a very high floor, there is great view which overlooked the city). Ah bliss~
We just spent couples of hours chatting, eating and cuddling. Hahaha it was romantic even though the day was bright and all.. After that, i went to prepare myself before heading out for dinner. He brought me to Kuishinbo Japanese buffet restaurant where we stuffed ourselves till our bellies were gonna burst!! Hahaha and well, the remaining photos are just photos of us and food.
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Lastly, their desserts and pastries are to die for! I was so stuffed by then but i still insisted on indulging on these sweet lil' pastries. Hehehe they are really good! And i'm so glad Jinhao chose this place to eat at because i really enjoyed myself. I'm very sure we left that place with a few kg heavier!!
Ahhh sorry for keeping this space so empty recently. I was just really, really busy during the last week of holiday because of my work and Jinhao was back by then.
I had a lot of photos not that i want to post actually but i can't even seems to finished editing them. Anyway, i thought that maybe i shouldnt edit them the way i do it currently and just adjust the exposure and lighting.. That'd be a lot faster too. Anyway last month during the holiday, the girls and i met up and we had a dinner as a celebration for my birthday. I was late and very guilty about it. The girls got me a Guess black wallet. It is very chic and i love it.
Anyway i took photos with my Galaxy Note that day. Some of the photos turned out really fine. So here they are!:)
We ate at Hot Tomato and the food was really delicious and affordable. Hahaha i always enjoyed the times together with the girls. Anyway, it started to get too late so we bid goodbye and went back home. Btw guessed what? I managed to get the present done before Jinhao came back from China. His birthday was over before he was back so.. it was belated gift. It turned out amazing. I couldn't do it if it wasn't for the detailed steps from Jesscia's blog. Jinhao even hung it on his wall.
For as a birthday gift, i also booked a stay at Wangz hotel this weekend. We wanted to have a short getaway but our timetable just can't match. So staying in Singapore would be the best that we can do as a "short getaway" isnt it? Hahaha
Anyway, i'm turning in now. I have an interview for the overseas internship tomorrow. I hope it went smoothly and i will be able to get a place in the internship. If i did, then i'll be in Amercia in about 4 months time
I am actually quite psyched about the upcoming movie, Avengers which will be released in less than a month time. Frankly, being a girl i am, i wasn't a fan of superheroes when i was younger. Sure, i knew and watched movies like Spiderman (when i was much younger) or Ironman (in the recent years) but it wasn't until i caught the movie Thor, did i became interested in the stories of Marvel Comics. Hahaha actually, i only came to know more of the different kind of superheors after my boyfriend, who is a major fan of the Marvel Comics, introduced me to it (:
So even though i now know the various type of heros from Marvel Comics, i would say that Thor has remained as my favourite Avengers. From the movie, it gave me a solid understanding of the introduction of Thor and the superhuman stregth and power he had. Even though his character was reckless and dangerous, he was very loyal and popular among the gods. I also laughed a huge amount at some of the light humor scenes from the movie. One of it as i recalled, was shown after Thor was banished to Earth where Thor walked into a pet shop demanding a horse. Hahah that was pretty funny to me!
I also love that Thor was born to the Frigg and Odin who were part of the Germanic mythology. As a legend and myth, it means that details were usually enhanced which helped the viewers to have a better impression on the character and place. For me, i was totally amazed by the castle Thor lived in The vast of gold and majestic statues were just dazzling!!
Another thing i liked about the character of Thor was the love he shared with Jane Foster, who was a scientist, where they slowly developed a romantic relationship With the amount of time they were together, they undergo a lot of amazing adventures together. Jane Foster had a fearless personality too, which i supposed, was why Thor was attracted to her in the first place.
Thor is an amazing superhero to me and i believed that in the upcoming movie, The Avengers, i will be able to catch more of him as he go through his adventures. What's more, there will be a lot of characters and actions going on this time! Can't wait for the movie to start airing in Singapore!
I don't know what has gotten into me. But as i am lying on my bed right now, and typing this out.. I realized that all my life, i had been making the wrong decision or choices. It's like this life i'm leading now, isn't actually me and i'm leading for somebody else. You know? 19 years. I took 19 years to figure out that. I sure took a long, long time to realize.
Well, life's pretty good to me. To start of, i didn't intend to write this down to whine about how bad my life is. I mean i'm pink in health, nor am i aesthetically or academically challenged. All my family and friends whom i ever needed is with me is in my life and i am happily attached.. It's just.. i still feel really empty sometime you know? The kind of hole no one can fill.. other than yourself?
I wished that i havent been living a life full of expectations. That way, i would definitely be closer to the line where i could live more like myself. Since i was a kid, i've bullied so much that i practically came home crying everyday. People are mean, even to a kid. I still don't understand that, even till today. Each day, i came home crying in my mom's arm and it was such a tormenting and traumatizing period for me. I had to face people bitching about me when i was just 7 years old.. from my fellow 7 years old classmates and their parents. It wasn't like they were hurting me physically, but the stress they put on me through their words and stereotyping were enough to kill my childhood happiness. I was still young.
So.. i guessed my parents.. make sure that i'd behave prim and proper since i was a kid. And i don't blame them. I just wished that, i had been stronger. That way, maybe i'd be able to break off from those judgements and still be a happy and silly kid. I learnt a lot of things while i was still fairly young like the things to say.. things not to say.. things to do and things not to do. Having a asian chinese family doesn't help either.. There is always strict rules to obey and i was too timid to speak my mind.
Hence ever since i started growing up and knowing what's right and wrong, i'd been trying my best to please people. And so often, i ended up bending my back on eggshell just to do so. It became a habit which i can't get rid of, even though i hate it and felt miserable. I think i doing better now that i am older but.. still, something just never change you know. I think growing up is the period which developed you into who you really are, and it kinda stick with you even when you're an adult.. well most of it. That's why, a lot of the choices that i made in my life.. were somewhat chosen to please the others too.
Now that i think of it, i really feel sorry for myself. It's true. These thoughts just keep going through in my head and it's almost unstoppable. I know that it's my life and i should live it the way that i'd be happy for but yet, I don't have the courage. Its silly as it sound, isnt it? I mean, lack of courage to be happy?
Anyway, the reason for this post is because i realized that what i am doing.. i'm not happy at all. I am totally going the wrong path in life. Obviously, i love Arts. Visual arts.. literary arts.. performing arts.. Yes, i love it all. And i wished that i am doing something related to it, so badly. I was reminded often that doing Arts is a unreliable path to choose and it'll be a really tough for me since i'm not the best etc.. So i gave up the idea of taking Arts instead of D&T in my secondary days.. I gave up studying Fashion design after getting my O level results.. I gave up my guitar and private art classes. And headed for a sector that is steady and firm enough for me to study for.
And in my mind, there is always this girl who is so much closer to living her life than me. She'd been in a fashion school, sketching and designing apparels.. Raking her brain for creativity and great ideas for the next project. And when she's free, she'd be strumming her guitar or writing beautiful piece of essays. Life's be perfect for her..
And i wish i am leading half the life she's having..
Doesn't all the lil' girl's past time used to be coloring? 
The vast of gold and majestic statues were just dazzling!!
With the amount of time they were together, they undergo a lot of amazing adventures together. Jane Foster had a fearless personality too, which i supposed, was why Thor was attracted to her in the first place.
